I'm hitting rock bottom. It can't be long now.

Thank You

You watched me. Now you know my deepest secret. it was on a freezing cold night. The moon exposed. You did see me hurt myself, in every way I could. Spanked and whipped and humiliated by two abusive mistresses who didn't understand what was going on. They laughed and tortured me some more. I wish it was you. I wish it was you! You would have done it to build me up to get me back on track. My pain inside was so excruciating that by hurting myself it could've numbed. You saw and understood. You didn't judge me. I know you wouldn't. Could you do more than understanding? Could you love me? Could you heal me inside? Could you lead me from the freezing moon to the warm sun in my hearth? I can't find the sun inside can you help me to feel the warmth again? Could you ignite the fire in my heart again?

You watched me!

to fluffinRayRay and other cams. My baseline drums so low. Every breath I heave to decide to take the next one. Your audience is a part of my room. We all see and hear you but are even afraid to let out voices heard. Even so we hide behind some symbols and tokens. Ashamed of our lust for this fresh meat we cannot touch nor devour. Cowardly hidden no risk to be hurt. What is it with your genitals? they promise life and care. Unconsciously we long to be that special one. Who do you see in that camera lens but a small spec of yourselves? Your audiance see so much more... E.T.

Hey rays you promissed to read and recod your poem:)

A fear I am the pure terror.

dozing off; I'm an old guy .Sometimes I capture the bizzar places my thoughts take me. How to take control over it? I fear life itself. And you can only fear the future. and the future is certain. it' ends in the grave I better enjoy the rest of the trip instead of dreading it. Thx for this poem. i love your soul

Beautifull. i makes me see my fading looks at my misses. i'm not supposed to use her like that

we are living it

Beauty

I want to take you to Peru ( https://www.facebook.com/ayahuascahouse )and drink ayahuasca in a ceremony and see if ghosts can hug each other

I wanne hug you but what would it help? One ghost hugging another

You're the living Kali https://kashgar.com.au/blogs/gods-goddesses/kali-a-most-misunderstood-goddess

Thank you for sharing